At some point, people who are overweight have a moment that really makes them rethink their lifestyle and decide to make a change. I think I've had my moment. My name is Courtney. I'm 34, a wife, and a mother of two really great girls. I have a great job, albeit a bit stressful at times. I enjoy my life, so why am I fat? Why have I "let myself go" like this?
Watching weight loss shows on TV I see so many people there who claim they've packed on the pounds due to some traumatic event in their lives. For me, my weight gain has had nothing to do with a traumatic event. Plain and simple, I like food. I ;like the unhealthy kinds of food. Any I like a lot of it. I eat because food is a passion. Food is yummy. Food is fun. I guess you can say I am addicted to food.
That's what makes losing weight so hard for me. Think about it this way. An alcoholic is addicted to booze. But they can put the bottle down and still live. It's touch for them to get through each day but they can exist without the alcohol. A food addict doesn't have that luxury. Human beings have to eat to live. I still have to eat food or I will die. So every day I have to partake of the thing that's caused me to get this big. That's the hard part. And I'm not satisfied by a "normal portion" amount. The so-called "normal portion" is about half of my normal portion.
Over the years I've tried different ways of losing weight. I've joined gyms and worked out. I've cut various foods from my diet. I've gone vegetarian. I've gone vegan. I've tried weight loss pills and shakes. But nothing I've tried is a sustainable change for me. I am still experimenting to find what's going to be a sustainable lifestyle change for me.
On top of this, I'm having some health problems. I've been a sufferer of migraines since I was five. And for the past year I've been dealing with extreme dizziness. I've been to two doctors so far and have been referred to a neurologist for further testing. I go to see him on Tuesday October 8, 2013. Because of this dizziness I can't just go walking or running regularly. I have to take someone with me because I am afraid of falling over. So that's another concern I have that must be overcome.
So those are my challenges. I know that in order to lose weight and get healthy I have to eat less and move more. So easy, right? Then why is weight loss so hard? It's because for me, weight loss is just as much mental as it is physical. I have to have my head in the game in order to be successful. I've done it before and lost 40 pounds in 4 months. I was on the way to success. But as soon as my head got out of the game, my body followed suit and I gained back all of the weight I'd lost plus some more.
The choice is solely mine. I have to make the choice to do what it takes to lose the weight and get healthy. So I am choosing to go from fat to fit. I want to be able to keep up with my kids. I want to set a good example for them so that they don't go down same path I've gone down. I don't want my girls to look at me and say, "Well, Mom's fat so it's okay if I eat an extra bowl of ice cream."
I'm also setting goals for myself to accomplish during this journey to health. I'll list them on another tab and as they are completed I will note that next to the goal. It's going to take a while. I didn't get fat overnight. I won't get fit overnight. Every day is a new challenge. I plan on taking this journey one day at a time and every step in the right direction will take me down the road to success.
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